A Closeted Goth Girl Trying to Make it in the Professional World

Monday, September 26, 2016

Super Soft Birthday

Hello thar! WOOOHOOO it is finally fall!! I need to get these summer outfits out of my folders so I can move on to my favourite clothing season!!

 Here is an outfit I wore to a friend's birthday party. The theme of the party was taken from my new favourite show Letterkenny. Each year, the guys on the show have a "super soft birthday" for their friend featuring cupcakes, sprinkles, party hats, and various pink things. I wanted to wear something kind of frilly or pink to match the theme; however, I don't really own anything frilly or pink so I did my best.  The peplum top has a sort of frill or something and I put some flowers in my hair and wore a heart necklace......that is about as soft as I get.


MAC Lipgelee in Shift to Pink, MAC eyeshadows in Parfait Amour and Beautiful Iris, MAC Mineralize Blush in Sakura, NARS Blush in New Order, random hair flowers, random flower bracelet, Bunny Paige Necklace, Hillberg and Berk earrings.

Top: Suzy Shier
Skirt: Dex
Shoes: Guess

Letterkenny is the funniest show I have seen in a long time. It vaguely reminds me of my other old favourite Trailer Park Boys.

The super soft birthday party
Anyone else out there ever watch Letterkenny or Trailer Park Boys? They are both Canadian shows so I wonder if people from elsewhere have ever seen them.

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Silversmithing Class

Earlier this year, I decided to take a silversmithing course that was being offered at a local arts centre. I had been suffering from feelings of stress, inertia, uselessness and lack of motivation so I figured maybe taking a class would help.
The course was taught by an elderly no-nonsense lady. She taught us some basic techniques like filing, sawing, and soldering the silver and then we got to design projects and work on them with her help. Some people in the class did not appreciate her teaching methods; for example, while learning to solder, a student asked her how you know if the soldering worked. The teacher picked up her project, dropped it on the floor, and stated "That's how." as it broke in two. 
Also, the course was mostly self-directed and this did not sit well with some people. You were supposed to design your own projects and then work on them during class. Many people were afraid to try things out, could not think of any designs, and needed a lot of help which didn't work well when there were 15 students and one teacher. Many people designed one piece and spent every class perfecting and fussing over their design. Others incorporated techniques that were beyond their beginner ability and needed a lot of help.
Being that I took this class as a stress reliever, I was kind of surprised at the level of frustration that people expressed. Our first project was a simple ring with no embellishments that allowed us to practice soldering, filing, sawing, and shaping. For some people, it was not going so well and they got very upset! I guess since I am in the vise grip of stress and accuracy at work I like to give myself a break when I do other things and just see how they go and if I f*ck them up, who cares. Since it was just a recreational class to try something out I was a bit miffed at the attitudes of some people.
I decided to just go for it and try making things on my own and seeing how they turned out. Since I was a beginner, I figured I would use the basic techniques that I knew to make some simple, graphic jewellery. I came away with 3 pendants and 2 pairs of earrings. My pieces are not really "classic" in the realm of silversmithing; if you were a true silversmith you would be much more careful about your polishing and the finish of your pieces. I decided that I wanted my pieces to have a bit of an "unfinished" look to them.

The first thing I made was this pair of earrings. It required sawing, filing, and drilling holes. Since I used this piece to learn how to drill holes, they are not quite straight. I was experimenting with polishing and ended up with a somewhat brushed yet unfinished look.

The second piece that I made is a pendant. I had to file and saw the silver into this shape. Sawing in a straight line is definitely a learned skill and I need to work on my technique. For this piece, I decided to use a hammer to try out different textures. On one side, there is a coarse texture and on the other side it is smoother and duller. You can wear it facing either way.

One of the unfortunate things about this class is that silver is expensive. I had some scrap brass that we were given to practice on at the beginning of the course and I decided to saw it, file it, and drill some holes in it to make earrings. I also practiced bending and shaping with pliers. Another technique I used (and failed at) was soldering silver to the brass.....as you can see, I melted the squares of silver when soldering them. I must say that I did truly suck at soldering.

This pendant was quite difficult. When you solder silver, you have to be careful about the order in which you solder things and the weight of the solder that you use. If you use the wrong solder or your torch is too hot you can undo other parts of the piece that you have already soldered together. Since I knew how to make rings, I decided to solder together several circles to make a cluster pendant. Unfortunately, when trying to finish the piece, one of the rings in the middle popped open and the other circle next to it warped a bit. I fixed the piece by soldering the popped circle as it was. That is one thing I liked about silversmithing; you can screw up and still end up with something neat even if it was not your original design.

My final piece was a pendant made out of the remaining scraps that I had left over. Since silver is pricey, I did not want to waste it. I left it with a fire-stained partially polished finish to give it that gritty, handmade look. Also, I learned that when soldering, some of your pieces can move so you have to be careful. The shapes ended up a bit jumbled from where I placed them originally. 

Once you have taken the basic class, you can sign up again for further classes and just use the studio to work on your own stuff. I think I will do this in the coming spring. There are a lot of techniques that I would like to work on such as setting stones and filigree work. I like silversmithing A LOT more than I like sewing! When you screw up a silversmithing piece you can usually salvage it.......this is often not the case with sewing!

Have you ever tried silversmithing or taken any recreational classes lately?

I Am NOT Supposed to Buy Makeup But....


Set to Stun, Kling It On, Khaaannnn!

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Last Days of Summer

Ah, it's finally that time of the year......the time when we turn off the air conditioner and turn on the furnace! The time when the wind gets colder and the leaves turn colour! The time when I can actually start wearing proper clothing without dying of heatstroke......well, almost. Right now it is nice and cold out in the morning and evening but can still be pretty warm during the day. I am READY for fall colours so for this outfit I used my trusty plum skirt and got out some burgundy makeup. I just read a post on how chokers are back in style on The Mutant Stomp Friends and wow, does that ever make me feel OLD. It is all well and good when trends from other decades come back but when things start coming back into style that you wore the first time around it is truly something else. I found an old piece of a broken necklace that matched the colours in my shirt and strung it on a piece of lace to make a "new" choker. I always love when I can resurrect something old and use it in my current wardrobe!


Dior Addict Ultra-Gloss Flash 982, Arbonne eyshadow in Cabernet, Urban Decay Moondust Eyeshadow in Solstice.


Sunglasses: Guess
Earrings: Hypnovamp (Formerly Lemantula Designs)
Choker: Some lace strung with a piece of an old broken necklace 
Top: Plastik Wrap
Skirt: Workhall (local)
Shoes: Shelleys London

Hopefully this will be the last time I have to wear open-toed shoes this year. How is the weather in your neck of the woods?

Saturday, August 27, 2016

Lazy Clubwear: Alien Botany

Hello, I hope everyone is having a good weekend! It is Saturday so today I shall post a clubbing outfit......albeit a lazy one.  Due to my unfortunate work schedule, I only get one weekend off a month. On the Thursday and Friday before my weekend off, I work 2 shifts with only 8 hours in between them so on Fridays after work I am usually pretty tired. Thus, I am quite irritated that many club nights/events/concerts have been falling on Fridays rather than Saturdays lately. I have been resorting to wearing some pretty lazy/comfortable outfits for these evenings (if I manage to go out at all, that is......getting old and tired sucks!)
I added some really cool leggings to my wardrobe last year and they have worked well for making comfortable yet somewhat interesting outfits. They have such an awesome print on them but I find that it is hard to do them justice in my photographs. Also, my outfits that I have made kind of suck, I feel like I need to think of something way more interesting to wear these with!


Sugarpill Heart Breaker and Sweet Heart Palettes, Sugarpill Angel Baby False Eyelashes, Cryoflesh collar and cuff, MAC Lipstick in Violetta, MAC Mineralize Blush in Sakura, MAC Chromaline in Rich Purple, Earrings by Lemantula Designs.
 You will note the presence of some hair extensions in the above picture.  I was trying to do a really neat hairstyle with these so the colours would match the print in my leggings. Being that I suck at doing hair, I screwed it up royally, got pissed off, and just put my hair in a straightened ponytail and that was the end of that.




Mesh top: Probably bought it 10 years ago, who knows where it came from
Tunic/Dress Type Thing: Black Milk
Leggings: Zoetica Ebb


Ratchet by Elly Clay

Tunic: Dex

MAC Violetta, Lemantula Designs earrings, old spike bracelet that I have had forever, ring by The Rouge and the Wolf.
Do you have any neat leggings? What do you wear them with?

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

My Sister's Wedding

Last summer, my younger sister got married. *SNIFF* They grow up so fast! *SNIFF*

For a wedding, I like to do matte, neutral makeup with two colours of blush, a clear tint for the lips, and false eyelashes. I learned these tips from the Bobbi Brown Makeup Manual and I have found that they are spot on for having your makeup photograph well. I, for one, photograph very poorly but at least my makeup was looking on point. I bought my first pair of mink eyelashes from a local beauty boutique to be extra fancy for the wedding.


Creme de la Creme mink eyelashes in Overindulgent, MAC Sheen Supreme Lipglass Tint in Blushing Berry, various Inglot and Annabelle eye shadows, Tarte Park Avenue Princess blush, Too Faced Pink Leopard Bronzing Powder, UD 24/7 Liner in Midnight Cowboy, and Amaterasu liquid eyeliner.


My sister chose multi-coloured rainbow bouquets and they looked awesome against the white wedding dress! She found someone on Etsy who makes them out of silk flowers; they looked very real, I thought they were so cool! We also had rainbow holographic clutches (my sister's was white). 


We wore matching jewellery for the wedding from Hillberg and Berk. I wore hematite sparke balls and she had white opalescent ones. I would not normally go for this type of jewellery; however, I now have several pairs of the earrings. They are a nice way to dress up your look a bit even when you are wearing a semi-alternative outfit. It is also a good idea to have some "grown-up" jewellery around for when spikes and skulls are not appropriate. Also, Hillberg and Berk is a company that hails from my hometown. REPRESENT.


Before the wedding, my mom and sister and I went to get our nails did. I got some gel nails but opted out of the pedicure as it feels weird to me to make someone else touch my feet!


My sister picked out a freakin' awesome wedding dress; look at that sweet train! I went with her to pick one out, there are some really cool wedding dresses available these days! We both went to get our hair did before the wedding; my sister got her makeup done as well. I am always wary of letting others do one's makeup but they picked out this awesome plum lipstick that looked fantastic on her so they knew what they were doing! Her hair was pretty awesome as well, I loved the fishtail braid!

You should have seen her wedding photos! The photographer did an awesome job, I cannot even describe how they turned out. I am terrible at photography and just don't get it so I am always amazed when someone can take photos of people in a back alley and make them look all whimsical and artsy! Anyways, the wedding was awesome! It was a nice, relaxed, toned-down affair and she married an awesome guy. What more could you ask for?

DISCLAIMER: Please note that I am aware that getting your hair did and your nails did is not grammatically correct. Thank you. LOL.

Monday, August 22, 2016

Plum Skirt

Well hello there! Finally, summer is almost over and it is starting to cool off outside!! Fall is my favourite time of year and I can't wait to start wearing my fall clothing! Anyway, here is another attempt at surviving heat while trying to look like I put some effort into my appearance. I tried to do some plum and purple tones to spice up my neutral eyeshadow but my crappy photography skills did not pick it up. 


Lise Watier Midnight Pearls eyshadow in Orchid, Bourjois Paris eyeshadow 13, Benefit Rockateur blush, Buxom Full-On Lip Polish in Gabby, UD Naked palette, Tokyomilk Dark Destiny No 79.



Earrings: Hillberg and Berk
Necklace: Le Chateau
Cuff: Who knows I've had it forever
Top: Le Chateau
Skirt: Workhall (local)
Shoes: United Nude


I have been wearing Tokyomilk Dark Destiny No 79 perfume a fair bit this summer. It is not a scent I would normally go for but it feels summer-y or something. Apparently it has notes of honeysuckle in it. FUN FACT ABOUT HONEYSUCKLE: the woody part of the plant contains a chemical that cats react to in a similar way to catnip. My aunt brought over a dried honeysuckle stick and both of my cats got all weird over it! 

Did you know that cats react to honeysuckle? 

Also, sorry for my very late comments, I have been away from the computer lately.