A Closeted Goth Girl Trying to Make it in the Professional World

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Halloween 2016

Happy Halloween!!!!

Here is the Austin Powers group costume that I participated in last year. We had Dr. Evil, a Fembot, a shark with a fricken' laser beam on its head, Mustafa, Number 2, a go-go dancer, Agent Kensington, and Austin Powers. I went as a fembot. I got a blonde wig and it looked SUPER WEIRD on me. I made the costume using simple hand and machine sewing. I bought an inexpensive pink bra and sewed marabou trim on it by hand and glued on some aluminum tubes that my husband found in the garage for the guns. I sewed some shiny pink fabric to the bra and added trim at the bottom. I made a hair clip out of a bobby pin and some of the feather trim. I found some pink gloves and spray-painted some old high heels pink and glued on some feather trim to complete the look. My friend who went as Agent Kensington sewed her own costume as well. 

A pretty good effort if I do say so myself!

Aaaaaand now that Halloween is over, I must brace myself as we shall soon be bombarded by everything Christmas......noooooooooooo!!!!!!!

Sunday, October 29, 2017



I must say, I just had a damn good weekend! My friends from my hometown came to visit and we went to see Depeche Mode! They put on an amazing show, it was really something to see. I didn't think I'd ever get to see them live. We also put together a group costume and partied it up for Halloween (since it falls on a Tuesday this year, we got our partying done early.)

Here is a spider web themed outfit that I wore to a Halloween party last year. 



Dress: Pinupgirl Clothing
Waist Cincher: Artifice Clothing
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell

If you're dressing up for Halloween, make sure you post it on your blog! I would love to see your costumes!

Sunday, October 22, 2017


Good day! I hope everyone is having a good weekend! I had this weekend off so I got to do some fun stuff! I went out for a nice steak dinner for a friend's birthday, went to see Blade Runner 2049, and hung out with some friends in the hot tub! 
Today's outfit was from last summer when I went to a corset fashion show/burlesque performance. I am not sure why I felt the need to wear a  steel boned corset, PVC skirt, and no less than five different hair accessories in the middle of the hot summer....it wasn't great (thus the cranky looking outfit picture). I guess I wanted an excuse to wear my wedding corset again. 


Earrings, necklace, bracelets: Random goth-ish jewellery I found at random times at the very mainstream store Le Chateau, Various Hair accessories: some made by me, Lipstick: Riri Woo (the most annoyingly named lipstick ever).


Corset: Sweet Carousel
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell

How was your weekend? Who is excited for Halloween next week???

Thursday, October 19, 2017

2 for 1

As I am trying to clear my summer outfits out of my folder (SINCE IT'S FREAKING THE MIDDLE OF OCTOBER ALREADY), today's post shall contain not 1 but 2 outfits. Wow.

The first outfit is gold and brass themed. It was fairly casual as I wore it to go for a bite to eat and then to a friend's house party. The shirt has a neat gold tentacle and bubble print on it as well as a cute ruffle neckline. It is also longer in the back and has a neat shape to it; it's one of my favourite casual tops.


Bracelets: old, my mom gave them to me. Ring: was my mom's grandmother's I believe. Earrings: Studio Valyr (Etsy)


Top: Plastik Wrap

Outfit numero dos was worn to a luncheon event for which I had to endeavour to look somewhat spring-y and festive. I managed to sneak in a couple of alternative elements such as spikes, animal print, and black lace. 


Necklace: Bunny Paige.

Skirt: Was looking to add some lace to my wardrobe, found a skirt for $10 at a secondhand store.

WOO-HOO, Halloween is coming up soon! I just finished my costume and my good old friends are coming to visit! We are doing a group costume as we have many times before. This year we are doing old-school Blade Runner; we felt it was the year to do it as the new movie just came out. We are also going to see Depeche Mode!!

Now if only I can get through work until then.....it has been an utter GONG SHOW.....it is always a gong show but it is particularly bad right now. Hopefully I shall survive the the copious overtime, weeping, and gnashing of teeth that shall occur over the next week or so......

Sunday, October 8, 2017

See-Through and a Scarf

On the day I wore this outfit, I believe it was something like 30°C (86 F) outside. Despite this, I managed to work a scarf into my ensemble.......it was made of linen so I didn't completely fry. I don't really wear much in the way of revealing or form-fitting clothing for daywear these days as I continue to age and my metabolism continues to die a slow death. On this particular day, for some reason, the urge struck me to wear a see-through knitted crop top. AVERT YOUR EYES!!


Pendant: Made by me in silversmithing class. Sunglasses.....aren't even in the outfit picture.......


Top: Piper Dalton Designs
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell
Scarf: Nuit Clothing

How do you feel about wearing see-through clothing? 

Wednesday, October 4, 2017


Well holy crap, it's already OCTOBER.  I guess I had better get rid of all of the summer outfits hanging around in my blogging folder! I have lots of styling ideas for the fall and winter season, I can't wait to be able to go to things other than work so I can try them out!
Today's outfit consists of what I believe is supposed to be a bathing suit cover up with a bunch of tassels on it. It was far more see-through than I thought when trying it on so I wear a pull-on skirt under it to protect my modesty. It has great flow and movement and is one of my favourite things to wear in the summer; it also goes with a wide variety of shoes and accessories. Speaking of accessories, I have always wanted to get my hands on some vintage silver and turquoise jewellery. Until I do, I shall wear fake turquoise. This outfit was worn out to a Cajun restaurant......it was so tasty! I even tried alligator. Good times.


Fake turquoise jewellery from a variety of mainstream clothing stores.

Shoes: Shellys London

Sunday, October 1, 2017

From Summer to Fall

It's that time of the year again......the time when the weather wildly fluctuates between summer heat and fall chill. It's kind of a pain in the ass because one day you're still in summer sandals and the next day you need a coat and boots. I'm glad that I have a few good transitional pieces in my wardrobe that can be worn in different seasons. I am planning on using this dress for my fall and spring wardrobe; I will wear it with opaque black tights, boots, and a jacket or scarf when it gets colder out.


NARS Rikugien, Earrings: local clothing store, Necklace: made by me in silversmithing class.


Dress: Kowtow Clothing (from a local online boutique)

I'm still enjoying some stuff from the garden before the first frost. I got a nice FAT zucchini and I used it to make zucchini noodle pasta. I have a TON of ripe tomatoes right now and I have been using them to make tomato and veggie sauces. 

What clothes are you going to take from summer to fall?

Sunday, September 24, 2017

Venus Fly Trap

I just realized that I haven't posted a clubwear outfit in forever!!! I guess I don't get out as much these days due to my shitty working hours. I got this dress from PinupGirl Clothing quite some time ago; I absolutely love everything about it! I don't usually like strapless dresses but this one has good boning in the chest area and I was planning on wearing it with a waist corset which holds up the dress quite nicely. I love the shape that the peplum creates with the corset, the wonderful colours, and the Venus fly trap print! I am endlessly fascinated by carnivorous plants so I was instantly attracted to this dress.


Sugarpill Cosmetics Eyeshadows, Fyrinnae Aye Captain, MAC Absolute Power lipstick, Hair Flowers: Sourpuss Clothing, Pinupgirl Clothing, and made by me, Bracelet: Le Chateau, Necklace: Bunny Paige.


Dress: PinupGirl Clothing
Waist Cincher: Artifice Clothing
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell

Speaking of Venus flytraps, my sister gave me a little plant for my birthday earlier this year! Alas, I don't know what the hell I did wrong but I killed it. I have a book about growing carnivorous plants and I was feeding it and giving it distilled water like it said to....not sure what went wrong there. 

ARGH it did so well for awhile and it was so cool!! I will have to try to grow one again someday. 

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Day Goth

Earlier this summer, I went to a dreaded summer event that I usually avoid like the plague. There is a yearly outdoor exhibition where you can admire and purchase the works of local artists. It is always 30 degrees outside (86 F) and there are always a million people (and children) so I tend to stay away; this year, however, some friends were going so I went along. I ended up dressing a lot more goth-y than I normally would for the daytime for some reason. I also ended up purchasing a nice piece of art for my house; it is a picture of a local landmark painted by my friend's brother.


Earrings: Martha Rotten, Necklace: Gift from my sister (Eyescream Jewellery I believe), Nest Indigo perfume, Alex and Ani bracelet, MAC Kling it On lipstick.

Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell

Now that it's September I have been enjoying the harvest from my vegetable garden! I have been getting a lot of Swiss chard lately so I've been making one of my favourite recipes:

Swiss chard and tomato linguine with balsamic glazed chickpeas.....the recipe is on Thug Kitchen's website if you want to try it! My parents made the pinot gris.
It's starting to get cold out so I'd better get cooking!! The garden's days are numbered at this point...

Did you make it out to any summer festivals this year?

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Long. Black. Asymmetric. Gunmetal.

Today's outfit was worn out for a nice dinner followed by an evening of pool. Pro tip: long necklaces and flappy shirts tend to get in the way when you're trying to line up your shot. Note to self: wear something a bit less involved next time you go play pool. 
The aforementioned necklace is from Lufolk Crafts on Etsy. It is hand-forged and made out of iron.....how cool is that? It also fits in well with my gunmetal accessories.........I really enjoy matching my metals. I have been looking for shoes and a bag with gunmetal accents for quite some time without success.


Necklace: Lufolk Crafts, Earrings: Local clothing store.

TOP: Wings of Sin (Etsy)
SKIRT: Groceries Apparel

I am starting to see iron jewellery popping up here and there and I think it's really neat! What do you think of it?

Sunday, August 27, 2017

Darkling Tag

Time to play tag!

 I was tagged by Ra.....I am always in awe of her unique personal style and gorgeous photographs. The questions were provided by Graveyard Kittens.

Simple Questions
What is your favorite candle scent?
I DO NOT BURN CANDLES. I am terrified that I would forget to blow one out and burn down my house!

Do you have a favorite book?
I have a lot of favourite books but if I must pick one I'll pick Mindhunter by John Douglas and Mark Olshaker.

Are you a tea or coffee person?

Coffee in the morning, decaf herbal tea at night (I'm getting old, I can't handle caffeine in the evenings anymore lol)

What's your favourite perfume/cologne?
It varies. Right now it's Orange Sanguine by Atelier Cologne.

Do you have a celebrity crush?

I don't eyeball celebrities that much....except for Alexander Skarsgård.

If you could change your name to a stereotypical 90s/2000s gothy name, what it would be?

Did people actually do this??? I missed out! Scarlet Wynter.

What are your top three tips for surviving hot weather while black clad?

1) Do not attend any irritating summer outdoor festival type things. 
2) Avoid patios. 
3) If you must go out wear drapey, flowy clothing with ventilation.

What song will always make you happy (doesn’t have to be a goth band)? 
"Until the End of the World" by Apoptygma Berzerk. It is my favourite club dancing song and even though it sounds upbeat, it is actually a very sad song. Watch the video for some super 2002 fashionz.

Are you active in the arts (ex. play an instrument, paint, write, etc)?
Uh, I write really sh*ttily on this blog.....I used to play the piano and the flute, like, 16 years ago......yeah. I am not artsy at all, I sew begrudgingly when I have to but suck at it and I sometimes craft accessories when I have time. I guess I have taken up silversmithing recently........

What is your number one non-gothy hobby?

Thought Provokers

If you could be a supernatural creature, what would it be and why?
Can I be like a mermaid or a fairy or something? It would be fun to fly and swim around and be sparkly and pretty. 

What horror monster super-powers would you have?

Immortality so I can see how the world finally ends one day.

Do you feel confident or comfortable interacting with other goths or gothy people (online or irl)? Why or why not?
Yes, I find that the goths are a pretty accepting group of people for the most part.

Which is more important for a look: great hair or great makeup?
MAKEUP. For me, anyways. My hair always sucks, I am not really a hair person but my makeup must be done!!!

Is there something you wish there was more of in your subculture?
Not really.

Care to share an embarassing story related to your "darkliness"?

Back in approximately 2004, my best friend and I went to Toronto to see Nine Inch Nails. We were wearing some form of dark clothing and boots. We were going into a Subway to get some lunch when an older couple came up behind us. Being polite young ladies, we held the door for them and let them go in ahead of us. Upon entering the restaurant, the woman turns to her husband and yells, "WHY DID YOU LET THOSE HOOKERS HOLD THE DOOR FOR US??!?!?"  WELL SORRY FOR BEING POLITE!!!! I actually wasn't that embarrassed (I thought it was funny as hell) but if one had enough shame to dress properly in public, one might find such a thing to be embarrassing. 

How are you at DIY?
Sh*tty. There is always much swearing, weeping, and gnashing of teeth when I try to make anything.

Confessional (aka True or False)

I love watching cheesy romance films.

I always remember to wash off my makeup at night.
F**K YES my skin is bad enough already 

I sleep with plushies.
I sleep with a 15 pound cat, does that count?

I wear non-black pyjamas most nights.

Yes, I always pick out the ugliest P.J. pants that I can find and wear them with ratty old t-shirts. I am not very glamourous when it comes to sleepwear.

I think Andrew Eldritch is overrated.
I am indifferent towards Andrew Eldritch.

I don’t like vampires.

True but I'll make an exception for this one:

God, this was the stupidest show ever.
I don’t like clubs.
FALSE. They are the one place that I can dress like a complete ass and get away with it!

I don’t enjoy graveyards.

Depends why I'm there, I guess....

I'd sooner faint than pet a spider.

I don’t like haunted houses.
TRUE!!!! Being stuck in a dark, claustrophobic area with a bunch of people I don't know in my personal space = TERRIFYING!!

I’ve never read Dracula.

I think “Bela Lugosi’s Dead” is a long and boring song.
Kind of but it's a classic.

I shall tag 2 ladies with sewing prowess...........Mindless Indulgence and Madame Mari Mortem.

Saturday, August 26, 2017

Antique Gold and Brass

Today's post features a summer clubbing outfit with gold and brass accents. In the past, I only wore silver-toned jewellery but in the last couple of years I have added different metal accessories to my wardrobe to change things up. 


Earrings: From an "alternative craft fair", Collar: Studio Valyr.
Studio Valyr is a store I found on Etsy that makes unique leather accessories. Look at the beautiful detail on this piece!

I love how braided hairstyles have been trendy (according to fashion magazines, anyway) for the last few years. I LOATHE wearing my hair down and enjoy styles that keep it well controlled.......it's always nice when you can look like you're up with the times.


Skirt: Plastik Wrap


Fluorite by Yes
What are you up to this weekend?

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Casual Friday: Band-T

I am starting to feel that chill in the air that signals the end of summer. Unfortunately, it's not over YET, we have still had some scorching hot days. One of the well-ventilated tops in my summer wardrobe is a band shirt from an old favourite, A.F.I. I haven't worn band t-shirts or listened to A.F.I for YEARS but I picked up their Blood Album recently and unexpectedly loved it. They kind of lost me there with Crash Love and Burials so I am excited to be listening to them again! Casual t-shirts aren't usually my thing but when it's hot out, I don't care how casual I look. 


Urban Decay Vice lipstick in Venom.

AFI-T 2001

AFI-T 2017

Some things never change.

Are you a fan of the band t-shirt? How do you style them?

Thursday, August 17, 2017


Ah, summer......it is a time of great, suffocating heat and limited fashion choices. While I usually like to wear mostly black, in the summer I sometimes take the opportunity to throw on as many colours as I possibly can at the same time. I've got to keep my restless mind amused one way or another...... I have recently taken a shining to so-called "muscle tanks" for the summer. I do not have any toned musculature to show off by any means but these tops DO provide great ventilation in the heat of summer. They are also fun to style with bralettes/sports bras, etc. I wore this outfit to go out for lunch with a friend.


Necklace: Bought from a local shop where I used to live approximately 15 years ago.
My summer fragrances of choice have been some Atelier Cologne samples.....Mandarine Glacial, Orange Sanguine, and Sud Magnolia. I love the smell of citrus!


Top: Zolnar

This summer, it has been a bit cooler out than normal (thank god). My potted flowers were quite happy about this!

How's your summer going?

Monday, August 14, 2017

Summer Music Festival

Every summer, if I can get the time off work, I like to attend a certain music festival that is conveniently located a couple of hours away from where I live. I recently attended said festival so I thought it was high time I posted my photos from LAST YEAR. 
(All band photos were taken by my husband.....if you think my fashion phtography skills are poor, you should see my concert photos......)

Dress: Zoetica Ebb, Necklace and Earrings: DeUno (Etsy)

Voicecoil - SO GOOD


Note the hot dog suit in the background

The Horrorist......not something I ever thought I would see live. It was truly something.

Agent Side Grinder.......all the way from Sweden


Hate Dept.

Cold Cave

Dress: Futurstate Clothing, Shoes: Yes

Left Spine Down



Venetian Snares.....look at those fancy modular synthesizers!

I have nothing but good things to say about this festival, they always book big names and I always find some new bands to listen to. If you live in the area, you should go if you can!